31 Jul 2008

Right Now

I really need sleep. I mean lots and lots of sleep! The circles around my eyes aren't getting any lighter (and I bet it won't anytime soon).

25 Jul 2008

Gotcha ;)






I finally have you. The wait is definitely worth it. :)
I love you, Tyler♥
I love you mama and papa ♥
I love you Aki.
I love you Twinnie.
I love you Bang.
Let's have a shoot together.
I'm just so ecstatic I can't get over it!
I finally have a DSLR.
A DSLR I really want.
I'm too happy and overwhelmed.
Gaganahan na 'ko lalo sa course ko XD

23 Jul 2008

Ang Tanga Ko

Wala lang. Kinakarma na 'ko sa mga pinag-gagagawa ko sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Hindi ko gusto. Kagabi umiyak ako. First time nalang ulit kagabi dahil sa isang tao. Hindi dahil sa mga nangyayari. Well, ganon din naman kasi dahil sa nangyari samin kaya ako naiyak. Alam mo yun? Hindi mo 'ko naiintindihan. Sa sobrang selfish ko, wala akong binitawan. Gusto ko akin lang lahat. Grabe, life is surely taking its toll on me. Ito na, nagsusuffer na 'ko. Ano pa ba gusto nyo mangyari diba? Nagkamali ako, kasalanan ko din. Kahit ilang beses ko isumbat sa kanya yung pagkakamali nya, hindi parin natin maaalis na malaki din pagkakamali ko. I should've known better. Dapat umpisa palang alam ko na mangyayari 'to. Isang malaking kalokohan. Kung hindi ako nagpaka-tanga, edi sana hindi 'to mangyayari at OK padin ako. Eh hindi, masyado kong pinairal yung hindi dapat. Andami nang nagsasabi sakin na wag, pero ano ginawa ko? Go parin ako eh! Kahihiyan nalang talaga. Sa susunod, di ko na papabayaan sarili ko. Salamat kay Trina kagabi. Sya yung tinawagan ko eh. Andami nyang sinabi, nakaka-comfort. :) Sana makalimutan ko agad.



LSS: A Letter To Elise - The Cure
Elise, believe I never wanted this.

21 Jul 2008

Just a quick post

It's almost 1030 in the evening right now as I type. I'm trying to make it as quick as possible because of some things I still have to do. You know, school stuff. I swear, school is killing my social life! Right now, I'm thinking of my BFF, Aki. I've spent one whole year with him doing nothing in fashion school except for sewing, pattern-making, and having fun. Zack actually told me that school was going to ruin our friendship. Well it won't ruin anything! I'm just hella busy and I can't accommodate everything at the same time. I'm prioritizing. And I know what to put first -- studies, studies, studies, plates, plates, plates.

I got my first taste of a sleepless night doing plates already last Friday-Saturday. Seriously, no sleep at all. Thank goodness I didn't fall asleep on my way to the LRT because Chean (blockmate) and I went to school together. So we were practically dissing our professor. No offense sir. ;) I bet you also did this to your professors when you were in college! Haha! No lies, okay? Anyway! Thanks to the caffeine I had to intake before doing the plates, helped a lot. I suddenly wondered why I didn't feel sleepy. Because usually, drinking coffee makes me drowsy. Odd. Anyway, I wasn't able to finish all the plates. It was fo' defo' insane! It was okay though. I mean, there's always next time, right?

Tomorrow is PE day! And I hate PE. Thank goodness I know a lot of people from that PE. Three classmates and then some. I'm not exactly looking forward to it, seeing that I missed two consecutive sessions already. First was due to the plates I had to submit to my professor, second was because of my sudden illness which lasted for a week. Oh well, I better have the letter from my parents ready by tomorrow!

One more thing, we were at the Engineering building today. It was quite fun. :) Can you believe it? Engineering building being fun?

Me: Tignan nyo yun oh! *points at some guy from afar* Parang si Carl (blockmate :P) na kinompress!
Friends (Mineza, Des, Jelly and Paeng): *laughs*
Me: Nakakatuwa naman! *thinks* Ang galing, kamukha pa nya pinsan ko!
*Guy passed by in front of us. I was still looking intently*
Me: Mon! *Guy looked at me.*

Turns out, it was really my cousin. It's such a shame, he had to see me with that thing stuck between my fingers. I should stop this. Mom already knows what's going on. Mico told me about it. Speaking of Mico, I miss him! Hah.


So this is the end. Of the post, I mean.

18 Jul 2008

Grabe

Ang kapal ko talaga. May panahon pa 'ko magpost ng kung anu-anong kabalbalan dito sa blog ko pero wala akong panahon gumawa ng plates.

Pero ito na talaga, gagawa na 'ko. Magbuburn lang ako ng CD para ganahan ako gumawa.

May Oras Pa 'Ko?

Tignan mo nga naman, busing-busy na 'ko sa pag-gawa ng mga plates nakakahanap parin ako ng panahon para makapag-post lang sa blog. Actually wala pa 'kong nagagawang plates ngayon kasi talagang tinatamad ako! Tama ba na tambakan kami ng prof namin sa Lettering ng sangkaterbang plates? Ayan tuloy, naipon. Apat agad eh. Haay nako, wala naman kaming choice. Syempre kelangan namin gawin! Di naman kasi pinupulot ang grades.. pinaghihirapan. Estudyante lang naman kami, prof sila.. tinutulungan nila kami sa landas na gusto namin tahakin. Sorry, wala lang talaga ako sa mood mag-English masyado. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. Off topic! Ayun nga, balak kasi namin ngayon eh gumawa ng plates sa Lett dito sa bahay. Kami nila Des, Mineza at Jelly. Dito daw sila matutulog. If I know, GG lang nila yun. Pero sana tumuloy, pinaghahandaan na ng mga tao dito yung pagdating nila! Si Des siguro payagan pa. Ewan ko lang sa dalawa. Actually si Jelly di pinayagan eh kasi may pupuntahan daw siya. Haha GG nga talaga! Ok lang, alam ko naman tinatamad lang yun. Pagka-layo layo naman kasi ng bahay ko.

Gusto ko sana mag-training ngayon kaya lang eh di ako pinayagan ni papa. Oo, nagpumilit ako kanina. Pero na-guilty ako nung sinabi nya na di daw ako mapagsabihan (isang paraan upang sabihin sakin na matigas ang ulo ko). Kaya sabi ko pupunta nalang ako ng school para makabili ng bristol board tsaka India ink. Sana hindi na luma yung mabili ko. Ano ba dahilan ng hindi nya pag-sang ayon sakin? Kakagaling ko lang kasi sa sakit. Eh medyo tumagal sya hanggang kahapon. Natatakot lang naman sya para sakin dahil hindi na nga daw ako makahinga. Gets ko naman sya eh. Atat lang talaga ako mag-training. Second week na 'to na di ako tumatakbo sa field. :( Tapos napansin ko pa kanina namamaga nanaman yung ankle ko. Two weeks na din 'to. Nakakairita lang naman kasi kung kelan ako nasa mood talaga, nagkakaron ng pangyayari na di talaga maganda. Tulad nalang ng sprain ko, ng lagnat. Di ko rin naman masisi yung super hectic schedule ng section ko. Lagi kasi kami whole day. Isipin mo naman, 7am-6pm kami nasa school tapos two subjects lang. Meron pang araw na wala kaming break, tas tatlong subjects. Dahil nga dalawang beses palang ako nakakapag-train, pakiramdam ko tuloy iniisip na ng mga tao sa CFAD team na gumagawa lang ako ng dahilan para di ako makapag-train. Friday nalang yung tanging araw na pwede ako, yun pa yung nabubugbog ako dahil sa plates. Pag Saturday naman na parang official training ng CFAD Football Team, nagkaka-conflict sa sked ko. Kasi nga diba, 3pm yung training tapos may Theo ako nun. :| Nalulungkot ako pag naiisip ko. Pursigido pa naman ako. Haay. Pero kung di ako makakapag-training ng husto ngayon, siguro eh next year nalang ako? Pero naisip ko rin, sayang yung opportunity. Next sem naman di na pwede kasi next sem na yung intrams eh. Gusto ko maexcempt sa PE! Para may uno na 'ko agad. Haay, bahala na siguro. Anghirap maging freshman. :| Pero masaya parin naman. Gusto ko naman ginagawa ko eh.

Masakit nanaman ankle ko.

Di na talaga ako makakapag-train today.

***
Gusto ko parin sya.


Angtagal ko na talagang naghahanap ng Havaianas Flash Way in black and silver. Syempre ayoko ng isa lang. Nilalangoy ko na ang buong Multiply para lang makahanap ng affordable at original talaga na Havs. Gusto ko talaga ng ganito. Pati yung Graphite na Slim. Pampalago lang naman ng Havs collection ko na di na natuloy dahil lang dun sa brown na Havs ko na nabili noon noon pa. May dalawang taon na din. Naulit lang nung bumili kami ni mama nitong taon ng dalawang pares ng Slim (dark blue Animals tsaka yung may stripes) tsaka isang pares ng metallic na top. Parang blue green kulay nya eh. Basta yun na. Haay.

Osya, tama na. Masyado na 'kong naaaliw dito. Kelangan ko na tawagan si Des.

17 Jul 2008

Pano Kung..

Mag-Tagalog ako ngayon sa blog post na 'to? Benta kasi. Kagabi ko pa naiisip na mag-papaskil ako ng isang entry na nagtatagalog ako. Di naman kelangan puro tagalog lang. Basta, trip ko lang. :)

Bakit?
Andaming pwedeng sagot sa tanong na 'to. Iisang salita lang andami-daming ipinapahiwatig. Pwedeng mababaw, pwede ri'ng malalim. Hindi ko lang kasi maintindihan, bakit may mga tao na nagbabago para sa masama? Kasi naguguluhan na 'ko eh. Nagbago kasi sya. Simula nung maging busy ako di na sya tulad ng dati. Kasabay din ng pagbabago nya ang pagiiba ng tingin ko sa kanya. Ayos naman kami bago ako magsimulang pumasok, pero nung natambakan na 'ko ng mga plates (para sa kaalaman mo, puro major subjects na kami) syempre nabawasan yung oras na nakalaan para sa kanya. Tapos nung kelan lang na nagkausap kami ulit, ibang iba na sya. Yung pakikitungo nya sakin eh parang di naman nya 'ko mahal. Syempre yung dating sakin ngayon kulang na sya sa effort. Dati kasi talagang kung pepwede eh magkikita kami. Ngayon hindi na. Parang sya din yung huli na nanligaw sakin, gusto ako pa susuyo. Ako yung ginagawang lalake. Pero naisip ko din na medyo matagal na din sya'ng nanliligaw (siguro). Simula mga April ata o end of March. Eh kung ipagpapalagay natin na March pa sya nanliligaw, may tatlong buwan na din. Pinaka matagal na nanligaw sakin yan. Grabe di ko talaga alam. Siguro ako ang may problema at hindi ako maka-oo sa gusto nya mangyari samin. Masyado lang siguro akong nadala nung nakaraan. Pero hindi rin eh, kasi diba.. kung pursigido naman talaga sya eh pag nakita ko yung tumataginting nya'ng effort, hindi ako mag-aatubili. Kaya lang, medyo pumapalpak na sya. At tsaka, kung sobrang gusto ko sya, wala nang alinlangan. Ewan. Bahala na siguro kung ano mangyayari. Kung masama man o mabuti yun, eh nararapat lang siguro. Diba?

Pati bakit ako nagkakagusto sa iba? At nasasaktan ako dahil din sa iba na 'to. Nagseselos ako sa mga babae na kasama nya. Mali din 'to diba? :(

15 Jul 2008

I'm Dying

What's up with the weather? Fine, I love this type of weather but when I'm sick, it becomes the other way around. Every part of my body is literally aching. My head is palpitating and I couldn't lie down 'cos I feel like I'm drowning. Yep, you get the feeling right? It's awful.

It's just a Tuesday and I'm bound to do my plates. Hopefully finish half of what I need to do. After going online of course. I think I have nine plates to finish.
MDR: 3 plates
FDR: 1 plate
LETT: *counts* 4 plates
DC: 1 plate
ATY: 1 plate
That's fine arts for you! Most of us think that FA is easy. But it's not. Sure, there isn't any science involved or math (minor subject haha) but it's actually difficult! You can't study during exams. When no idea enters your head you're probably doomed! I'm afraid to say this but that's how things are. UST isn't a piece of cake. Big misconception in that area. ;)

I hope I heal quickly. The colds and cough are so annoying! I hate the feeling. And the fever! Ugh. This isn't good. The only good thing is that I don't have any major subjects today, just PE. Goodness. Tomorrow is a brand new day, I must go on and finish my work.

I hope I don't get super lazy!



I crave you.

14 Jul 2008

Stalking 101

Be honest when I ask you this: Have you ever stalked someone before? I mean, have you ever tried looking up a certain someone you just literally saw in school maybe? Like, finding him in Friendster and looking for common friends? It's funny when you get a bit too obsessed with a person. It can be bad, it can be good. Good if the person shows interest. For example, looking at you intently.

Another question popped in my mind though, how do you know when a person (who is a complete stranger to you) is interested? I mean, when you turn to the person is he staring at you already? Because in all honesty, I am clueless - absolutely and completely clueless. HELP.


***
I'm not a flirt. I'm just unsure.
--You could be saying this, for all I care. ;) I don't think it's a sin to flirt.


Girls just wanna have fun.

***
I have about ten plates to finish within the week. Some before Wednesday, a few before Thursday, the rest on Saturday. School is killing me. I barely have enough time to sleep. Plus, I'm sick. Probably because I got a bit soaked under the rain yesterday. I hate these times. Colds + Cough + Fever = DOESN'T MATCH AT ALL. This sucks. :(

Another first happened today, though. It was really nice.

7 Jul 2008

Intergallactic Love Affair

I am a busy bee. I practically live in EspaƱa and just sleep at home. I spend more time doing plates than planning gigs. I would actually trade anything (aside from doing plates and having time to do something to have a high grade) for a long, good night sleep. I set my alarm at four and wake up at five just because. And I really wish I could always be early.

I'm definitely skipping PE tomorrow, I'll pe finishing ALL my plates due for the week. But then I still have to go to school to submit my section's plates to our professor. Also, I lost my Canson sketch pad. :| Stupid brain let me forget about it. Both my plates in Mechanical Drawing are there. I guess I'd just have to tell my prof about it on Saturday and beg him to let me make new ones. *sigh*

I don't have time for my friends outside of school anymore. I'm sorry, guys. :(


PS
My schedule is filled to the brim. But I'm happy that I actually get to do something everyday. Idleness makes me sad. This is better than doing nothing. But I am hoping for a day where I can just relax. I don't want to cram anymore.

3 Jul 2008

So Last Season


Seriously now, this trend is definitely getting old. :| It's no longer fun to see people wearing this around their necks. Okay, so I'm no fashion critic but please! This is so last year. I think I've worn mine enough. It's time to give the scarf a break. My dad's desiring on sporting one though. Not that I'm going to tell him to not wear one, he can go do whatever he wants. He's my dad! And he's only planning to use one during his class in the Mac room since it's like totally cold in there, like SO COLD. Hah, moving on.

I have training tomorrow. FINALLY! I've been itching to do so, and now (or tomorrow), I'd finally be able to go. *Big grin* Dad bought me shoes last Monday. Another thing to be excited about of course. Especially the sport itself. I've been itching to play football for the longest time. Since I've been stuck with futsal since elementary. Now it's time to try a different sport. Since this isn't one of the choices for PE during the enrollment period. So now I'm going to start training, and hopefully I get into CFAD's women's football team. So I'd get a one on my PE. Haha, okay never mind. It's because I hate my PE. A lot. I hope I don't do further damage to my ankle.. which I probably will. If you don't have any idea at all about what happened to me, I twisted my ankle when I fell on two different gutters in two different places with the same setting on the same day. Whew! Confusing much? Ehh, not quite. But you do get what I mean, right? Then my ankle swelled. It was an awful sight, and a much, much awful feeling.

Yesterday I went to school with a bandage wrapped around my foot. I begged my dad the night before to send me to school with the car. So I was safe. Hah, I walked around school and looked stupid. D: And my crush and his friends saw me like that. How embarrassing! It wasn't cute, damn it.