Kiss and Make Up

December 06, 2008; Saturday is one of the best nights of my life. I saw him play for the first time. Funny how I was just biting my lips and trying to take decent pictures the whole time. But in truth, I just couldn't take my eyes off him. It was so hard for me to see him from that distance though, since their lead guitarist was sort of blocking my view. But I still did my best to watch him. I was so shy to stand up, there were people sitting down behind me. This was the first time we held hands and more in front of his friends. Hahaha! Yes, it was a great bonding experience for us too. He met David and they got along pretty well. So I'm happy, he's happy, everyone's happy. :)

Do you know that this is my first time to introduce someone (special) to my parents? As in officially telling my parents that we have an understanding? That's a really big step for me. Considering that I don't really let my parents have a dose of my private life. And now it's not so private anymore! It feels so good to just tell my parents "Ma, I'm going to Shang today with special someone, okay?" or "Pa, I'm going to Glorietta on Saturday to watch special someone play.. he has a gig." and they acutally let me! ANOTHER FIRST! Usually they don't.. if it's just the two of us. And I bring him to church as much as possible. Once, after the service, we ate McDonald's with my mom and then went to a friend's house.

I wouldn't tell you everything about our relationship. But I'm telling you, we're not yet official. It might take long though, but I'm willing to wait. Besides, I'm really doing my best to give him a hard time.. although I don't think it's working. I'm really having a hard time at it.

Not too much of a "pleaser"

I've never cried this much since my mother threw my cellphone on the ground and kicked it. That was during summer, before school started. And last night I have experienced a kind of feeling that wasn't exactly the butterflies-in-my-stomach type. It was the exact opposite. And the fact that I cried myself to sleep because of a boy is just soooo nerve-racking. So, crying over a guy.. the last time I did was more than three years ago. And that was it.

Last night was a bit different. I cried a lot today, too. But I wouldn't want to go through all the gory details because I might cry again. Hearing his songs for me are enough to make me want to bawl. Ugh, I am such a big baby.

So much for that. Let's move on to something a bit more important (as if there's something more important to me than him).


School isn't exactly killing me, but it's not fun either. Honestly, second semester is boring. Unlike the first semester which was uber fun and I don't know why. But don't get me wrong here, I'm happy. Very happy. Because of him, of course. Even if we always fight. Wait, that's not the point. My feelings toward school is pretty satisfactory. Not too much excitement if you ask me. The only excitement I get is after all my classes when I sneak out and meet up with him.

I know that eventually, this post will be about him. So I better stop before I start missing him more than I already do.

It IS Love

I just finished watching A Walk to Remember. My non-materialistic wishlist was very much tempting although I didn't see it with my special someone, I was with Gen and Nico. We watched it in the living room using the laptop. How I wish he was the one with me during that time. I wanted to ask so many questions (that are sadly related to the movie). Cheesy stuff and whatnots.

The first time I saw him, I already thought about something a little too advance.

Pag ito naging boyfriend ko, di ko na 'to pakakawalan.

He was wearing something that caught my attention the moment he stepped out (We were at the smoking area in the 6th floor of Shangri-La Mall). A blue football jersey, shorts, high socks and futsal shoes. Oh my goodness. At that moment it was just me and my weakness for football players. I was with Desi and Cassie.. we were waiting for Jobel and Ivan to arrive. Every puff I took from my cigarette, I would look at him to see if he's looking back, and every now and then I would catch him looking at me. But then, what do I know right? Maybe he just likes looking around and stuff. So yes, that was the first. The second time I saw him he was with his girlfriend at the moment. I was a bit disappointed of course, but I thought I'd never meet him anyway so what's the point of wallowing in self pity? He was wearing these nice shoes.. Adidas Centennials. So that's another plus. Hahaha then I found out he knew my twin. And I sort of stalked him in my twin's multiply. It's insane I know, but there was something that made me not let go of this crush so easily. After that, whenever I would go out, I couldn't look around. Especially when it's a Friday because I always have this feeling that someone's watching over me. So yes, that's why I don't usually see him.

Then college came, met new people, had new friends. It was great, everything was going well. When one day came, I was invited to go to Cubao by a new close friend, Kookoo. So yes, we went to the ukays then to Shang so that we could meet up with their other friends. She invited me to come with them to the bible study they were going to attend. Immediately, I told my mom and she agreed with no hesitation (basta talaga bible study okay sa kanya). So their friends arrived and we went to UAP to meet up with MORE of their friends. And after a few minutes.. HE WAS THERE. Holy crap, imagine my heart pumping three times faster when I saw him look at me. Good thing I managed to pull off a nervous smile. We were introduced by a common friend (his best friend who is also my schoolmate! Super small world!) and I asked him if he was an acquaintance's bandmate. He said yes and asked me how I knew her, so I told him it was through my twin. Loads of thanks to her. ;)) The day ended nicely. It was definitely memorable.

Weeks have passed and all of a sudden, HE viewed my multiply. So I viewed him back, and he viewed me again. So I just decided to add him.. nothing wrong with it, right? So there, after a week or so, he sent me a PM! A PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He was seeking advice regarding which camera to get yadda yadda, so I told him that blahblahblah.. And before we knew it we were already conversing. Then we saw each other in UST.. he was with his best friend. Kuhaan kasi ng clearance. So there, hi-hello lang. Then after that, he told me to just add him in Y!M and I did. Edi chat-chat na ganon.. until he lost his phone. Haha :)) He asked for my number. And I actually thought he was on Sun so I told him I'm a Globe subscriber. He said it was okay and that he has a Globe sim. So yes.. we would regularly text each other, and we eventually got closer. He's been very nice, caring and sweet. And mind you, I did my best not to give in since he has a girlfriend *sigh*.

One night we were engaged in this hooking conversation. He told me he has a crush on someone for almost one year already. And that she's the number one in his life. I asked him who the girl is but he wouldn't tell me. But he would always tell me he misses her and stuff.. So I asked for clues. I was a bit jealous sure, but still, I tried to be a good friend to him if not something more. He told me she was sweet, caring and really nice. That she never left him hanging and stuff. I had a great clue on who she was (me! HAHA) but I tried not to think that I was the girl. Haha, I don't want to expect, of course. But I had this huge feeling it was me anyway. Then it was my turn to tell stories, I told him a similar story. He was trying to guess who the guy was and OH BOY HE ONLY HAD TO CHOOSE AMONG OF HIS FRIENDS. So I was intenesly nervous. Hahahahaha I tried not to say out loud it was him. But yes, he still got it. HIM. :)) He said it was BS and stuff. So I asked him who his crush was since it was a part of the deal (if I tell him mine, he's going to tell me his). And he gave this clue: her name starts with the letter "A" and ends with an "E". Kamusta naman yung kilig ko diba? Naguumapaw lang naman! And yes, that was it.. he likes me, I like him. And there was nothing wrong with it, right? Since it was only a crush.

Later on, he confided that his relationship with his girlfriend wasn't very good anymore. And as a friend, I told him that he should just do what would make him happy and be selfish just this once. Until we started hanging out, and doing couple-ish stuff. And then they broke up. And we fell for each other. I didn't want to take his ex's place though.. I think it's rude. Kaka-break lang nila tapos may kapalit agad sya. How would she feel right? So we tried to keep our relationship low-key.

And now it's been a month since we told each other about how we felt. My feelings for him are stronger. I love him to death. :) And I just know we are meant to be. Everything is perfect for the both of us. My parents know, by the way. It's my first time to be this open with them. I would bring him to our house, we would hang out with my parents. We're all cool about this. My dad just wants me to be responsible. Believe me, I'm trying.

Anything for him. ;)

BV

Kasi ikaw eh.

Start

I like boys who smell like cologne and cigarettes.
And boys who know when to stop.

Into What?

Last night, I was watching She's The Man. It just made me realize that I miss playing football a lot already. Haven't played (or let alone, trained) for months. The last game I had was with the AB football team. It was a good game, too bad I had an asthma attack in the middle of the game.

I want to play this sem break since I won't be doing anything too interesting. Except for drawing on my wall.

Yun lang.


I must play football soon :D

Ganito pala yon

Hindi ko alam kung ilalagay ko dito grades ko. Not to brag, but to show you that I am still a regular student of UST-CFAD. Honestly, my grades aren't blogging material, if you know what I mean. But I'm very happy that I didn't fail any subject. To think that I was extremely nervous to see my grades - whether I passed or not. And yesterday, Megi checked them out (my grades). Holly hell, was my morning amazing! Megi sent in my grades thru SMS and wow, I passed everything. Kahit isa lang uno ko, okay lang. My grades play in the line of two. Pwede na 'yon right? I'm still adjusting anyway. Eh ako pa, napaka-bagal ko lang naman mag-adjust!

I promise, next sem.. magkakaron na 'ko ng uno sa major subject :D

Here We Go Again

I just got home from school and I promise that I tried to stay away from the computer. But then I realized that I have something to check out anyway to be able to finish my plate. Tee-hee. The LCD and keyboard is always so tempting -- especially the Internet. *sigh* I wish I had a good grasp of my self-control.

Actually! I'm quite proud that I can multitask. I'm finishing two plates for my FDR now. And later I'll be finishing that other one for CTEC due tomorrow @_@ I know, I know.. I cram a lot. Tell me of a Fine Arts student who doesn't cram. ;)) Ah well, don't waste your time because you won't find one.

Oh, and this may be shallow but I hate it when people steal other people's layouts :( It's a sad truth. Mine has been stolen twice this month. Such losers :D Ina-add ko nga para mapahiya. Haha!

MY SECOND WISH LIST IS UP! :D

False Alarm

AKALA KO NAPUTULAN KAMI NG LINE! Nag-bago lang pala ng server ang PLDT DSL. Well, wala man lang warning. Pero ayos lang. Haha!

I'm trying to start with my plate in lettering. It's such a hassle to do, I swear. :|
*leaves*

TWELVE

Okay, 2am na. Pero humaling na humaling parin ako sa binabasa ko dito. Hello! I love you Internet! Super kilig meeeeeee XD Ok lang ba yon? Ok lang ba na kanina pa 'ko sa school kinikilig dahil nung nasa CR ako ng grandstand eh dumaan sya at nakatingin sakin? Pwede ba yon? At hinintay ko pa matapos class nya at grabe talaga nafifeel ko na nagpapapansin talaga sya sakin chever! Grabe baklaan ba this? Tama na nga. Pero di ko mapigilan sarili ko, hanggang tingin na nga lang, pagbabawalan pa. Ano ba yan, may girlfriend nanaman ba yung gusto ko? Whew, malas ko ba? :)) K, wala na yon.. tinigilan ko na yon grabe, promise talaga. Anyway sige, kikiligin na ulit ako. :D

EYES

My eyes are fucked up. I seriously don't know what's wrong with them. Bat ganito, dumadami ata problema ko sa sarili (Phys). Una excema, tas low immune system, tapos ito nang mata ko nagpapahiwatig! Oh no! Wala pa 'kong pera na pampa-check up. Ayus! :))

Party nalang tayo, please? Tara, labas mo 'ko? Tara ah? Sunduin mo 'ko dito sa bahay. Nakakasawa na mag-kulong dito. WAAAAH.

Jet na me. Magsusubmit pa 'ko ng part 1 ng prelim plate kay sir Nacario. GRABE TALAGA. Puyat nanaman eh! Hahahaha. Namaaaaaan. No sleep again. yehey! Ok lang enjoy naman ako. Oy bat ganon, yung ibang letters na tinatype ko dito parang di ko nakikita. Labo no?Parang andaming kumikilos na ewan sa loob. Shhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz.

Bust It

They don't ever mind.

Life Could Be a Party

It's up to you how you make it one.

Last night was a great night, considering that I was finally able to have a good-night sleep. Well yes, the other night was basically sleepless. Which means I stayed up finishing my plate for Design & Color 1 (DC1). The watercolor part was stressful, I must say. Especially the part wherein I have to use poster paint (which I made in school). Nope, it's not fun. But the best part was finishing ahead of my classmates. Then I started to feel bad. Because the previous day, I stood up under the rain for a few seconds. Probably less than a minute. And then there I was, stuck with a cold and a fever. But I'm kind of fine now. :)

So maybe you're wondering what I'm doing here. Our classes got suspended from 7am-1pm. Classes resume at 1pm and I have classes with Ms. Becares (ugh) at 2pm. But I won't be attending her subject. Hee-hee. I'd be in one of the pavs, doing my CTEC. Ugh, let's not even get there. Me and my blockmates are all working on the first part of our prelim plate.

Monthsarry din namin ni Ken today. :D LOL. Greetings?
If you go to UST and you're planning to look for this vandal, it's in pav one. Thanks to Ice for the decorations. Hahaha!


Time to jet to school!

I LOVE SHOPPING

Iba talaga pag sweldo na ni daddy :)) LOL. JK JK JK.

Babawi ako bukas, di ako nakuntento today. OMG ZARAAAA TOPSHOP AND THE RAM!! Forever weakness. LOL. I ALMOST bought the Cole Vintage gladiators but I thought of cheaper alternatives. Yay for Multiply of course. :>

Meet Excema

Went to the derma last night to have my skin checked with my mom. Turns out I have excema. I knew it. I've had this since high school I guess and it sort of came back. It's worse now though, with the pollution, the food I eat and the stress I couldn't avoid at all. So right now I'm under medication and my parents are watching closely at my diet (what I eat and what I don't eat). No chicken, or anything fishy or malansa.

I think I should avoid going to parties.

I might end up smoking my lungs out. And to think that I'm trying to quit.. and I've already managed a few weeks with out the huffing and puffing.. but it's coming back again. Thank you very much Sir Araw for triggering my bad habit again. He told me I flunked my prelim plate in Lettering. And the annoyed person that I was just had to go down stairs and smoke. So after smoking, we went back to the classroom, and I found out that I actually got a 90. A freaking NINETY. I passed. :| Not that it's a bad thing or anything, actually it's a great thing. But the fact that he just had to SAY that I didn't pass made me all pissy. Not good. Me + pissed = cigarettes. Hello! Somebody's trying to quit here. D:



PS
If you're, a family friend or what, just shut your pucker up. I'd really appreciate that. Although my mom is aware, I don't think you should open the topic to any one of my family.

I Hope We Never Change

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with YOU

Life isn't so much of a party, I know. With all those plates, all the stress we're going through right now, the sleepless nights, anxiety attacks and other things we don't want to happen to ourselves.

The life of a CFAD student.. practically revolves around the premises of UST. Well that's what I think. My social life outside sucks! Haha.

Game On?

postsecret.com

He's a nice guy but I don't like being played. I'm so sick and tired of the same thing happening to me over and over again. But I couldn't help but go with the flow even if it's wrong. So wrong.

I Don't Wanna Stick Around Anymore

Especially around someone I like. It's just this really awkward and nerve-racking process of liking him more! And I'm just too scared to get hurt. I think I have this phobia -- fear of falling in love. What do you call that? Oh, Philophobia is it? Ugh, basta yun. Maybe that's the reason why I'm so masawain. I don't want to be (masawain) anymore! It just.. sucks, you know? Especially when you like someone a lot? But then you're just too much of a chicken shit. I meant myself. I'm too scared. I want to but I don't. Labo no? Sorry. I just don't want to get hurt like I did before. It's too much of a traumatizing experience for me. Three months wasn't that long but it's been three years now and I'm still afraid of commitment. I hope when the time comes that I'll no longer be scared, I'm with the guy I really want to be with for the rest of my life. Please, NEXT YEAR! Or this year, pwede din. Not that I'm rushing, but I just want to feel something again.

Mission impossible or impossible is nothing?

Right Now

I really need sleep. I mean lots and lots of sleep! The circles around my eyes aren't getting any lighter (and I bet it won't anytime soon).

Gotcha ;)

I finally have you. The wait is definitely worth it. :)
I love you, Tyler♥
I love you mama and papa ♥
I love you Aki.
I love you Twinnie.
I love you Bang.
Let's have a shoot together.
I'm just so ecstatic I can't get over it!
I finally have a DSLR.
A DSLR I really want.
I'm too happy and overwhelmed.
Gaganahan na 'ko lalo sa course ko XD

Ang Tanga Ko

Wala lang. Kinakarma na 'ko sa mga pinag-gagagawa ko sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Hindi ko gusto. Kagabi umiyak ako. First time nalang ulit kagabi dahil sa isang tao. Hindi dahil sa mga nangyayari. Well, ganon din naman kasi dahil sa nangyari samin kaya ako naiyak. Alam mo yun? Hindi mo 'ko naiintindihan. Sa sobrang selfish ko, wala akong binitawan. Gusto ko akin lang lahat. Grabe, life is surely taking its toll on me. Ito na, nagsusuffer na 'ko. Ano pa ba gusto nyo mangyari diba? Nagkamali ako, kasalanan ko din. Kahit ilang beses ko isumbat sa kanya yung pagkakamali nya, hindi parin natin maaalis na malaki din pagkakamali ko. I should've known better. Dapat umpisa palang alam ko na mangyayari 'to. Isang malaking kalokohan. Kung hindi ako nagpaka-tanga, edi sana hindi 'to mangyayari at OK padin ako. Eh hindi, masyado kong pinairal yung hindi dapat. Andami nang nagsasabi sakin na wag, pero ano ginawa ko? Go parin ako eh! Kahihiyan nalang talaga. Sa susunod, di ko na papabayaan sarili ko. Salamat kay Trina kagabi. Sya yung tinawagan ko eh. Andami nyang sinabi, nakaka-comfort. :) Sana makalimutan ko agad.



LSS: A Letter To Elise - The Cure
Elise, believe I never wanted this.

Just a quick post

It's almost 1030 in the evening right now as I type. I'm trying to make it as quick as possible because of some things I still have to do. You know, school stuff. I swear, school is killing my social life! Right now, I'm thinking of my BFF, Aki. I've spent one whole year with him doing nothing in fashion school except for sewing, pattern-making, and having fun. Zack actually told me that school was going to ruin our friendship. Well it won't ruin anything! I'm just hella busy and I can't accommodate everything at the same time. I'm prioritizing. And I know what to put first -- studies, studies, studies, plates, plates, plates.

I got my first taste of a sleepless night doing plates already last Friday-Saturday. Seriously, no sleep at all. Thank goodness I didn't fall asleep on my way to the LRT because Chean (blockmate) and I went to school together. So we were practically dissing our professor. No offense sir. ;) I bet you also did this to your professors when you were in college! Haha! No lies, okay? Anyway! Thanks to the caffeine I had to intake before doing the plates, helped a lot. I suddenly wondered why I didn't feel sleepy. Because usually, drinking coffee makes me drowsy. Odd. Anyway, I wasn't able to finish all the plates. It was fo' defo' insane! It was okay though. I mean, there's always next time, right?

Tomorrow is PE day! And I hate PE. Thank goodness I know a lot of people from that PE. Three classmates and then some. I'm not exactly looking forward to it, seeing that I missed two consecutive sessions already. First was due to the plates I had to submit to my professor, second was because of my sudden illness which lasted for a week. Oh well, I better have the letter from my parents ready by tomorrow!

One more thing, we were at the Engineering building today. It was quite fun. :) Can you believe it? Engineering building being fun?

Me: Tignan nyo yun oh! *points at some guy from afar* Parang si Carl (blockmate :P) na kinompress!
Friends (Mineza, Des, Jelly and Paeng): *laughs*
Me: Nakakatuwa naman! *thinks* Ang galing, kamukha pa nya pinsan ko!
*Guy passed by in front of us. I was still looking intently*
Me: Mon! *Guy looked at me.*

Turns out, it was really my cousin. It's such a shame, he had to see me with that thing stuck between my fingers. I should stop this. Mom already knows what's going on. Mico told me about it. Speaking of Mico, I miss him! Hah.


So this is the end. Of the post, I mean.

Grabe

Ang kapal ko talaga. May panahon pa 'ko magpost ng kung anu-anong kabalbalan dito sa blog ko pero wala akong panahon gumawa ng plates.

Pero ito na talaga, gagawa na 'ko. Magbuburn lang ako ng CD para ganahan ako gumawa.

May Oras Pa 'Ko?

Tignan mo nga naman, busing-busy na 'ko sa pag-gawa ng mga plates nakakahanap parin ako ng panahon para makapag-post lang sa blog. Actually wala pa 'kong nagagawang plates ngayon kasi talagang tinatamad ako! Tama ba na tambakan kami ng prof namin sa Lettering ng sangkaterbang plates? Ayan tuloy, naipon. Apat agad eh. Haay nako, wala naman kaming choice. Syempre kelangan namin gawin! Di naman kasi pinupulot ang grades.. pinaghihirapan. Estudyante lang naman kami, prof sila.. tinutulungan nila kami sa landas na gusto namin tahakin. Sorry, wala lang talaga ako sa mood mag-English masyado. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. Off topic! Ayun nga, balak kasi namin ngayon eh gumawa ng plates sa Lett dito sa bahay. Kami nila Des, Mineza at Jelly. Dito daw sila matutulog. If I know, GG lang nila yun. Pero sana tumuloy, pinaghahandaan na ng mga tao dito yung pagdating nila! Si Des siguro payagan pa. Ewan ko lang sa dalawa. Actually si Jelly di pinayagan eh kasi may pupuntahan daw siya. Haha GG nga talaga! Ok lang, alam ko naman tinatamad lang yun. Pagka-layo layo naman kasi ng bahay ko.

Gusto ko sana mag-training ngayon kaya lang eh di ako pinayagan ni papa. Oo, nagpumilit ako kanina. Pero na-guilty ako nung sinabi nya na di daw ako mapagsabihan (isang paraan upang sabihin sakin na matigas ang ulo ko). Kaya sabi ko pupunta nalang ako ng school para makabili ng bristol board tsaka India ink. Sana hindi na luma yung mabili ko. Ano ba dahilan ng hindi nya pag-sang ayon sakin? Kakagaling ko lang kasi sa sakit. Eh medyo tumagal sya hanggang kahapon. Natatakot lang naman sya para sakin dahil hindi na nga daw ako makahinga. Gets ko naman sya eh. Atat lang talaga ako mag-training. Second week na 'to na di ako tumatakbo sa field. :( Tapos napansin ko pa kanina namamaga nanaman yung ankle ko. Two weeks na din 'to. Nakakairita lang naman kasi kung kelan ako nasa mood talaga, nagkakaron ng pangyayari na di talaga maganda. Tulad nalang ng sprain ko, ng lagnat. Di ko rin naman masisi yung super hectic schedule ng section ko. Lagi kasi kami whole day. Isipin mo naman, 7am-6pm kami nasa school tapos two subjects lang. Meron pang araw na wala kaming break, tas tatlong subjects. Dahil nga dalawang beses palang ako nakakapag-train, pakiramdam ko tuloy iniisip na ng mga tao sa CFAD team na gumagawa lang ako ng dahilan para di ako makapag-train. Friday nalang yung tanging araw na pwede ako, yun pa yung nabubugbog ako dahil sa plates. Pag Saturday naman na parang official training ng CFAD Football Team, nagkaka-conflict sa sked ko. Kasi nga diba, 3pm yung training tapos may Theo ako nun. :| Nalulungkot ako pag naiisip ko. Pursigido pa naman ako. Haay. Pero kung di ako makakapag-training ng husto ngayon, siguro eh next year nalang ako? Pero naisip ko rin, sayang yung opportunity. Next sem naman di na pwede kasi next sem na yung intrams eh. Gusto ko maexcempt sa PE! Para may uno na 'ko agad. Haay, bahala na siguro. Anghirap maging freshman. :| Pero masaya parin naman. Gusto ko naman ginagawa ko eh.

Masakit nanaman ankle ko.

Di na talaga ako makakapag-train today.

***
Gusto ko parin sya.

Angtagal ko na talagang naghahanap ng Havaianas Flash Way in black and silver. Syempre ayoko ng isa lang. Nilalangoy ko na ang buong Multiply para lang makahanap ng affordable at original talaga na Havs. Gusto ko talaga ng ganito. Pati yung Graphite na Slim. Pampalago lang naman ng Havs collection ko na di na natuloy dahil lang dun sa brown na Havs ko na nabili noon noon pa. May dalawang taon na din. Naulit lang nung bumili kami ni mama nitong taon ng dalawang pares ng Slim (dark blue Animals tsaka yung may stripes) tsaka isang pares ng metallic na top. Parang blue green kulay nya eh. Basta yun na. Haay.

Osya, tama na. Masyado na 'kong naaaliw dito. Kelangan ko na tawagan si Des.

Pano Kung..

Mag-Tagalog ako ngayon sa blog post na 'to? Benta kasi. Kagabi ko pa naiisip na mag-papaskil ako ng isang entry na nagtatagalog ako. Di naman kelangan puro tagalog lang. Basta, trip ko lang. :)

Bakit?
Andaming pwedeng sagot sa tanong na 'to. Iisang salita lang andami-daming ipinapahiwatig. Pwedeng mababaw, pwede ri'ng malalim. Hindi ko lang kasi maintindihan, bakit may mga tao na nagbabago para sa masama? Kasi naguguluhan na 'ko eh. Nagbago kasi sya. Simula nung maging busy ako di na sya tulad ng dati. Kasabay din ng pagbabago nya ang pagiiba ng tingin ko sa kanya. Ayos naman kami bago ako magsimulang pumasok, pero nung natambakan na 'ko ng mga plates (para sa kaalaman mo, puro major subjects na kami) syempre nabawasan yung oras na nakalaan para sa kanya. Tapos nung kelan lang na nagkausap kami ulit, ibang iba na sya. Yung pakikitungo nya sakin eh parang di naman nya 'ko mahal. Syempre yung dating sakin ngayon kulang na sya sa effort. Dati kasi talagang kung pepwede eh magkikita kami. Ngayon hindi na. Parang sya din yung huli na nanligaw sakin, gusto ako pa susuyo. Ako yung ginagawang lalake. Pero naisip ko din na medyo matagal na din sya'ng nanliligaw (siguro). Simula mga April ata o end of March. Eh kung ipagpapalagay natin na March pa sya nanliligaw, may tatlong buwan na din. Pinaka matagal na nanligaw sakin yan. Grabe di ko talaga alam. Siguro ako ang may problema at hindi ako maka-oo sa gusto nya mangyari samin. Masyado lang siguro akong nadala nung nakaraan. Pero hindi rin eh, kasi diba.. kung pursigido naman talaga sya eh pag nakita ko yung tumataginting nya'ng effort, hindi ako mag-aatubili. Kaya lang, medyo pumapalpak na sya. At tsaka, kung sobrang gusto ko sya, wala nang alinlangan. Ewan. Bahala na siguro kung ano mangyayari. Kung masama man o mabuti yun, eh nararapat lang siguro. Diba?

Pati bakit ako nagkakagusto sa iba? At nasasaktan ako dahil din sa iba na 'to. Nagseselos ako sa mga babae na kasama nya. Mali din 'to diba? :(

I'm Dying

What's up with the weather? Fine, I love this type of weather but when I'm sick, it becomes the other way around. Every part of my body is literally aching. My head is palpitating and I couldn't lie down 'cos I feel like I'm drowning. Yep, you get the feeling right? It's awful.

It's just a Tuesday and I'm bound to do my plates. Hopefully finish half of what I need to do. After going online of course. I think I have nine plates to finish.

MDR: 3 plates
FDR: 1 plate
LETT: *counts* 4 plates
DC: 1 plate
ATY: 1 plate

That's fine arts for you! Most of us think that FA is easy. But it's not. Sure, there isn't any science involved or math (minor subject haha) but it's actually difficult! You can't study during exams. When no idea enters your head you're probably doomed! I'm afraid to say this but that's how things are. UST isn't a piece of cake. Big misconception in that area. ;)

I hope I heal quickly. The colds and cough are so annoying! I hate the feeling. And the fever! Ugh. This isn't good. The only good thing is that I don't have any major subjects today, just PE. Goodness. Tomorrow is a brand new day, I must go on and finish my work.

I hope I don't get super lazy!

I crave you.

Stalking 101

Be honest when I ask you this: Have you ever stalked someone before? I mean, have you ever tried looking up a certain someone you just literally saw in school maybe? Like, finding him in Friendster and looking for common friends? It's funny when you get a bit too obsessed with a person. It can be bad, it can be good. Good if the person shows interest. For example, looking at you intently.

Another question popped in my mind though, how do you know when a person (who is a complete stranger to you) is interested? I mean, when you turn to the person is he staring at you already? Because in all honesty, I am clueless - absolutely and completely clueless. HELP.

***

I'm not a flirt. I'm just unsure.
--You could be saying this, for all I care. ;) I don't think it's a sin to flirt.

Girls just wanna have fun.

***

I have about ten plates to finish within the week. Some before Wednesday, a few before Thursday, the rest on Saturday. School is killing me. I barely have enough time to sleep. Plus, I'm sick. Probably because I got a bit soaked under the rain yesterday. I hate these times. Colds + Cough + Fever = DOESN'T MATCH AT ALL. This sucks. :(

Another first happened today, though. It was really nice.

Intergallactic Love Affair

I am a busy bee. I practically live in España and just sleep at home. I spend more time doing plates than planning gigs. I would actually trade anything (aside from doing plates and having time to do something to have a high grade) for a long, good night sleep. I set my alarm at four and wake up at five just because. And I really wish I could always be early.

I'm definitely skipping PE tomorrow, I'll pe finishing ALL my plates due for the week. But then I still have to go to school to submit my section's plates to our professor. Also, I lost my Canson sketch pad. :| Stupid brain let me forget about it. Both my plates in Mechanical Drawing are there. I guess I'd just have to tell my prof about it on Saturday and beg him to let me make new ones. *sigh*

I don't have time for my friends outside of school anymore. I'm sorry, guys. :(


PS
My schedule is filled to the brim. But I'm happy that I actually get to do something everyday. Idleness makes me sad. This is better than doing nothing. But I am hoping for a day where I can just relax. I don't want to cram anymore.

So Last Season

Seriously now, this trend is definitely getting old. :| It's no longer fun to see people wearing this around their necks. Okay, so I'm no fashion critic but please! This is so last year. I think I've worn mine enough. It's time to give the scarf a break. My dad's desiring on sporting one though. Not that I'm going to tell him to not wear one, he can go do whatever he wants. He's my dad! And he's only planning to use one during his class in the Mac room since it's like totally cold in there, like SO COLD. Hah, moving on.

I have training tomorrow. FINALLY! I've been itching to do so, and now (or tomorrow), I'd finally be able to go. *Big grin* Dad bought me shoes last Monday. Another thing to be excited about of course. Especially the sport itself. I've been itching to play football for the longest time. Since I've been stuck with futsal since elementary. Now it's time to try a different sport. Since this isn't one of the choices for PE during the enrollment period. So now I'm going to start training, and hopefully I get into CFAD's women's football team. So I'd get a one on my PE. Haha, okay never mind. It's because I hate my PE. A lot. I hope I don't do further damage to my ankle.. which I probably will. If you don't have any idea at all about what happened to me, I twisted my ankle when I fell on two different gutters in two different places with the same setting on the same day. Whew! Confusing much? Ehh, not quite. But you do get what I mean, right? Then my ankle swelled. It was an awful sight, and a much, much awful feeling.

Yesterday I went to school with a bandage wrapped around my foot. I begged my dad the night before to send me to school with the car. So I was safe. Hah, I walked around school and looked stupid. D: And my crush and his friends saw me like that. How embarrassing! It wasn't cute, damn it.

Am I On The Right Track?

I don't know which one I should put first in my list! Is it my infinite love for fashion? Or my deep passion for photography? Or my future career as a graphic artist? Life is so difficult even when it comes to choosing!

Honestly, I want a lot of things. And there are series of dreams going through my mind right now. About what I really want and stuff like that. Hmm, what do I want?

I want front-row tickets to fashion show, be a style icon known world wide, own a boutique, be famous, get rich, high-fashion clothes, designer stuff, loads of fancy cameras.. the LIFE I've been dreaming of for so long. And I'm sharing this dream with my best friend of course. Who is (I'm telling you) an up and coming designer.

We have dreams of living abroad. A place such as Japan or New York or London. Own our own place, live the life, and the fact that we'd be able to do what we want is just glorious! The fun part between all the stress is doing what we love. Haha so I guess this is settled then? I'm actually for the fashion industry? But yes, I'm still going to fulfill my dreams of being a photographer.

Tyler could be just a stone's throw away. I know he is.♥

Party?

I go out to dress up. So basically for me, that's having fun. Most of you go out to get drunk and dance. But it's not always like that. Getting dressed up for the event is what I'm always looking forward to. It always comes in a chronological order which is:

1) THE FASHION - getting dressed, prepping up, visualization, trying to come up with something. The first step is always exciting.
2) THE PEOPLE - may it be the people you're with or the people you meet.
3) THE MUSIC - yes, this one always counts.
4) THE DANCING - of course!
5) and lastly, HOW SMASHED UP WE GET - from the booze or whatever else you were taking that night.

Some things just make a lot of sense. Such as my list over here. Ha-ha!

***

The party I'm going to on Saturday sort of freaked me out in a bad way. Of course I was all giddy when I found out David was scoring me free tickets and that my friend (Mineza) had me guest listed together with the other people we're going with. But then it was a white party. Who wears white in clubs nowadays? It gets dirty so easily. So usually people wear black, any other color just not white. Oh well, I'm gonna have to treat this as a challenge. I don't like wearing white, I get dirty for a reason I don't know. Am I a dirt magnet or something? Gah. I've already thought of something to wear already, but I hope I pull it off wear. Even bought new shoes. Haha! I hope they arrive on time. Just before Saturday, I hope. Yeah, I ordered from Multiply.

Can somebody tell me how GCash works?

Give It

I'll be back so soon you won't even have time to miss me. Look after my heart -- I've left it with you.

--Eclipse

Two things.
1. I lost my phone yesterday.
2. I had my hair straightened today.

The first was horrid. Yesterday was a not-so-good day. Espana Boulevard was suddenly a river. We got so soaked, and we had to cross the damned street just so we'd be able to go to Makati (Jelly, Des and I). I met up with Aki, Aaron and Kate. Paulo went to Glorietta since I told him to do so. While I was in the MRT, I put my phone in my front pocket. The moment I sat down, I didn't have a phone anymore. Yeah, it's pretty tragic. To think that I just had it fixed last Sunday. :(

Second was a bit fun, at least. I met up with Desiree in school then we went to the salon to have our hair relaxed. At least my hair doesn't have its own life anymore. That's a relief. I hope tomorrow won't be miserable.

I finally finished drawing Jesus last night.. FOR LETTERING. Ang layo no?

Dig

I was browsing my old blog. And I just realized how much of a vile person I was when I was in high school. I don't know, maybe up to now? HAHA! Well then, I was such of a war freak -- I practically hated everybody! At least now I'm more tamed when it comes to my post. Kasi before parang lagi akong galit. Or laging exage yung stories. At least now I know my post are kind of moderated (I hope I do send out that image).

My blogging fame is over a long time ago as most of you know. I don't even force anyone to read this anymore. For me blogging is a pastime. I realized that I shouldn't really make such a big fuss out of it. I blog for fun now, not for popularity. Because that's how it was before. When I was in second year high school. *snickers* I'm putting my past behind. I shouldn't lurk around my old blog anymore. It brings back the awful memory of my youth (as if I'm already an adult. HAH). High school is over, I've moved on, I've changed and I'm living my life to the fullest. Things go wrong and they get fixed. I am happy, content (somehow) and in college. This could be the peak of my life for all I know! But I'm obviously hoping for something better in the future.

Okay, time to work on my homeworks now! I'll start with the seven elements of art. Then I'll draw Jesus after. Or maybe I'll do the latter tomorrow. I'm so tired.

Wait For it to Come

PANDA FOUR
haha

Today was tiring as usual. Just like yesterday. And the other day. And the other, other day. *sighs* I know what I got myself in to, but I didn't think that it was going to be this stressful already! *thinks* It's the time. Waking up very early (for most of us) and going home in a not so reasonable time. Having three subjects per day at the most that lasts not less than three hours. And the heat makes it worse. That's it, I'm staying inside Beato tomorrow. And I'll just go out to eat. And only 'til after school with Dora since she's really coming (She promised). I hate my PE -- it's gonna be held outdoors. I hope it rains every time we have it. :| I'm not a fan of the sun.

I miss you so much :(

Blow My Mind

1st and 2nd photo: Jelly, myself, Desiree and Mineza

FINALLY, pictures of the people I'm always with in school! Haha I love them already. Fun fun fun! :) Orientation tomorrow. I hope it doesn't get too hot. Literally.

My Dog

I recently found out due to extensive observation that one of my dogs is a Border Collie (dog above is not mine). Everything about him (Saddam, the dog) resembles that of a real Border Collie. So we (my family and I) figured out while browsing through a book about dogs that he is one. Ignore the name if you may, please. None of it was my idea. It was purely Junichi's (my brother's friend). But it's my fault I asked him the night he was given to us. He's a very nice, loyal, sweet and very reserved dog. Believe it or not, he eats a piece of bread little by little. He's also very shy and fierce at the same time. Amazing huh? Maybe you should meet him. Together with our three black Labradors and two natives. *Sigh* I love animals.

***

It was just twelve midnight and I was already sleepy. Come one in the morning and I was already closing my eyes. During these times I'm not usually sleepy yet since I typically sleep around two or three. To think that I've only been to two days of school. And my body clock's already worked up. Which means I don't get to stay up a lot often. No parties, I guess. And no more late-night texting with Paulo. Haha oh well. Monday will roll by and his classes would start. The both of us will be starting to sleep earlier! Haha.

Can anyone hook me up with a four-year supply of band aid? You know, for my paltos. New shoes do this to me all the time. Even if they're just the right size. Ah well, at least I know I'm not the only one who's been getting paltos due to new school shoes! Haha! And I hate to admit it but I just bought those foot-stockings. The ones some college girls use for their school shoes. Yeah that, I just bought two pairs last night since this is an emergency. Although me and my classmates decided to bring flip flops with us everyday. And wear them every break time.. If we do have a break that is. I mean, our Saturday schedule is just dope. Mondays are okay, we only have to stay in one room for three minor subjects. I only have one subject on Tuesday which is PE. And I'm just thankful that Pau (my classmate) and I have the same PE schedule (and sport). So yes. It doesn't bother me anymore. The PE, I mean.

***

I need a new wallet. Mine might suddenly give up on me. Not very good. No, not good at all.

Right On!

I figured that I haven't really posted any picture or some sort of my classmates. And here they are!

Cheryl and Manel

Krizeel (Krizel), Anne S., I forgot :(, Mika and Jobi

Hannah and Melai

There are more, obviously. But I was just too lazy to take pictures. Maybe around next week or something.. When we're all close. And when I already know their names. Well I know most of them but the others, I just can't remember. Hmm..

***

Second day palang namin ng class nag-malling na agad kami! After Anatomy (which started past seven and ended at 8.30am), we had a very LOOOONG break. Our next class was at 2pm which is Free Hand Drawing. So six hours, diba? Ano naman gagawin namin dun? :)) So yeah, we went around the school, back and forth, etc with my classmates. Then we (Desiree, Mineza, Jelly and I) went to SM San Lazaro then we watched a movie. Can you guess what?

YESSSS! I finally got to see it XD Honestly, it was okay. Not too grand, it was a bit funny. But we had fun. We were able to while away. And we got to bond! Not too bad, right?

After our last subject (Free Hand Drawing), we just hung out. And ate. We only realized how hungry we were while sitting in one of the pavs. So the four of us just ate pizza and bought iced tea.

Then after the hanging-out and all that, I met up with *coughpaulocough* in Legarda. Then he came with me all the way to Antipolo. And even treated me the fair! Haha, it was very sweet of him. He lives all the way in Paco. Faaaaar :| Oh well. It was a fun ride. Sabi nya mag-gel daw ako ng bangs. Salbahe. He hates my new hair but he can't do anything about it now. Pero wala lang, thank you parin Paulo :)

***

I'm going to Quiapo tomorrow to buy a nice umbrella! Bang's not replying though, and mom's tagging along.

First Impressions and Swollen Throats

Today is about how my day went as a freshman.

I should have listened to my parents. Sleeping early and all that. I fell asleep around 1am which was already early compared to my usual 2.30 / 3am bedtime on regular days. I was all set, my stuff were already in the bag, and I already said my good nights to the people I was texting. The moment I woke up, the first thing I checked was the window - to see if the sun had already risen. And yes, it already has. So immediately I checked out my cellphone to see the time - LO AND BEHOLD - it was already 6 in the freaking morning!!!!! So you know how this goes right? I was supposed to wake up at 4, be ready by 5, leave home around 5.15. BUT I FAILED! I FAILED BADLY! D: Good thing the professor knew my dad and all so he signed my registration form. Whew.

Michael kept bugging me if my prof was done yet and when he (Sir Zamora) finally finished, I texted him then we hung out. Went to P. Noval then went to one of the pavs where I met uhh.. his friends. I forgot their names. They performed magic for me. HAHAHAHA! Flattering. And it was kind of funny because when we went to sit on one of the pavs, I noticed this Korean girl was looking at me. And when I looked t her, I totally flipped! It was Becky! Very surprising, I missed her a lot. I even greeted her on her birthday but she changed her number na pala. Oh well, I'm glad she's there.

At first I thought I wouldn't make any decent friends but I surprisingly did. My classmates were fun. But I didn't have the chance to meet the boys. Walang cute, pwede ba. Higher batches lang yun! Haha oh well. All in all, it wasn't a very bad day. Although I was practically panicking the moment I woke up and all, the day went surprisingly well. I'm relieved.

ME: Ano name mo?
CLASSMATE: *says her name* (sorry, I forgot). Eh ikaw?
ME: Anne. *smiles*
CLASSMATE: Ah! Ikaw yung late!

Awful first impression. Ah well, bawi nalang!



Second day tomorrow! Gotta be there on time.

I Kissed Makati Goodbye

Not quite yet. But I have accepted the fact that I won't be around the area as much as I've been in the past year (which was very great). I've grown attached to the place and moving on to a new environment might be quite hard. The nearest mall is in Cubao for crying out loud! But it's not like I'm going to hang out there. Oh I'm sorry, does it sound like I'm disgusted? Ah well, I don't know. I don't really find Gateway mall very entertaining. It's so small compared to what I'm used to (Glorietta, Greenbelt, Shang). And it's too crowded for my liking which is sad. Filled with college students with too long of a break. I'd choose P. Noval over that mall any day!

Oh well.. I'd get used to these new things. And no Gateway for me. Plus, Tuesday is Makati day. Seeing that I only have PE.

***

I'm having first-day jitters. Like butterflies in my stomach and whatnots. I'm more of scared than excited if you ask me. Do you get what I'm trying to say?

Nonsense

I saw this movie last Wednesday with my friends from school (Aki, CJ, Aron, Jackie, Celine, Jonie, Bebang and Andrei although he doesn't go to my school). It was so funny! Especially this one part when Miranda found out that her husband cheated on him. It was funny for all of us since two people from the group can relate to the extremes. The rest of us were just suppressing our laughters. The clothes were amazing! Everything was just glorious. I can't wait to go to Manhattan.

New York is everything I've dreamed of. And also London, France, Italy!

Designer brands, high-living, fabulous life style, high-heels, stilettos, front-row seats, VIP passes, Celebrity status.

I want the ultimate Manhattan life.

And I'm willing to work hard for it. :D

Tyler, baby.. Please come home ♥
Mommy can't wait to finally have you in her hands. You're too precious to not look for. And you are for my career! XD

You are a mystery

Everyone, meet Mystery Man. Well actually, he's no mystery to me.

Tomorrow is one of those days which got me excited since last week. It was all set, really. Until something comes up, of course.. and then I go all sulk-y and dull and boring and bratty and hot-headed.

Last week, MM and I had a plan for next week Wednesday (which is already tomorrow) to see a movie, have merienda and eventually hang out with my fashion school friends. It got me thrilled because I haven't seen him since last May 21 where I got all bitter (Hint!). I'm okay now, if you didn't know. And if you have no idea what's going on with my life then don't meddle, I guess. I don't think it will get you anywhere. So yes, back to the topic, everything was set, I already have something to wear (HAHA) and we're bound to see Sex and The City (SEX AND THE CITY!!!) with my friends. But of course he doesn't know that one yet. What he knows is that we'll be seeing Iron Man (Okay, I'm a loser.. I haven't seen it yet :|) alone.. together. But there had been some change of plans, so we'll be seeing the other movie. Also, tomorrow is my tita's birthday. She and Tita Dith will have a day off. So my mom was telling me (Not asking) to guard the shop in Tiendesitas. She didn't even ask me what I was going to do tomorrow. How inconsiderate. :( Now I'm all dull, and I don't know how to tell MM over here about the change of plans. I mean, I could have asked him to come with me to Tiendesitas but all the tinderas there would just gossip about me, being with someone else. And this someone else is a guy! So it means trouble. You see, I haven't introduced him to my parents yet. And no, we are not an item. Yet. So there, I'm going to try and discuss things with my mom. I hope she doesn't go all cranky with me since I'm just going to tell her what I have to do tomorrow. Not about MM, of course.

This week is my last week in Slim's (Fashion & Art's School). And I'd love to spend time with my Makati friends. And I would also highly appreciate it if she considers my plans. I was going to buy tita Beng pizza from Yellow Cab tomorrow but if mom insists on me, staying at the shop then no more pizza. And I'd be all suplada tomorrow, most probably. THE WEATHER WILL PROBABLY MAKE HYSTERICAL AND GROSS. And if she doesn't let me go to school tomorrow, I'd look awful. No make up, no efforts in dressing up, I'd look like trash. Something that hasn't taken a bath for weeks. No. Someone who looks absolutely hopeless. The sole fact that I'm thinking of not looking a bit decent is awful, but I'm trying to be rebellious. *Fails badly*. I'm the greatest wuss, I think. But if, I really, really don't end up going to school tomorrow, I'm drowning myself in Wuthering Heights. I love you Emily Bronte.



I'm so sorry, baby :(

Sinking In

School wasn't that fun. Honestly. And my day was pretty much incomplete without my best friend. I mean, I'm used to having him around.. in school especially. Oh well, I'll see him tomorrow -- I MUST SEE HIM TOMORROW! I'm borrowing a jacket from him for the show on Friday.

YES!! -- I am going to watch a fashion show with my friends from school at SMX on Friday FOR REALZZZZZ! I know I just said in my recent post that I'm pretty lazy but after a while (Probably a few hours or so), I became excited. Especially when my dad told me I could actually go. I'm ecstatic! He's not really the type who'd allow me to go to a far away place. So maybe MoA isn't too far, but from where I live, oh boy I think I need a visa! Anyway we're watching Gerry Katigbak, Lyle Ibanez and Ramon Favila. Now, I'm actually looking forward to something. Something that is actually worth my time.

*squeals*


[edit]
Right now I'm not really fussing over what to wear because what I'm actually nervous about is the hair and make up. EEK. I was thinking of something a bit Asian (Korean for me, LOL). And the make up is just.. I DON'T KNOWWWW O_O And also how to not be in the inis init zone. No to shiny face and sticky feelings! That's just gross. :( Oh well, I guess I'd have to get myself an oil film. And oh, the clothes are good but my footwear is still pretty much undecided. I'm eying on a pair of plaid, round-toe pumps I found at the Ukay nearby but I'm saving the cash for Friday. So yes, I do not know where to get shoes. And I'm not going to wear my four-inch stilettos, please.. have mercy on my poor feet. But I am sort of choosing my blue, patented peep-toes.. although I want to wear stockings. *sighs* This is more difficult than I thought.

OK, so right now I am fussing about everything. My whole wardrobe, shoes, hair and make-up! UGH. And I should charge my cam's batteries. They're acting very.. old -- if you know what I mean. Also, KdM is in need of updates. And the fashion week is a good source of outfiteros out there. So if you're one, then you should probably lurk around the Makati area (Glorietta / Green Belt / Ayala) and the Ortigas area (Shangri-La Mall).

So.. GOING, GOING..

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*dies out of frustration* LOL

FASHION WEEK '08!

Yesterday was the start of the Philippine Fashion Week and oh boy, for me it was a disaster. The sun was up and it was SO HOT OUTSIDE.

In a nutshell, I wore my BOOTS to start the lovely week. Well the bad parts were that I wore a purple cardigan that made me look fat, a black tank top and shorts that totally didn't match the cardi. :( To me it was a disaster. I could've worn a big shirt, a skinny belt and shorts with Havs for all I care and still carry the look well even if it's basically trash. BUT NO. My outfit yesterday: FAIL! Good thing today was different. Andrei thought I looked nice and so did Aki. I love them both. And I was thinking.. today will be MY start for the Philippine Fashion Week. Yesterday was too much of a mess. Oh, and my classmates scored passes for a few fashion shows.. I can come, sure. IF I'm not too lazy. Maybe Aki and I could just kick it at the mall or something. I don't want to spend too much cash. That would be bad. :( I'm saving up for something very important. But I will still be buying these shoes I found in the ukay. Round toe pumps are love! And the flat ankle boots, I might get for Aki. Or myself. Hah, whatevs.

I'm tired and my eyes hurt.


WATCH OUT!

THE NEW AMERICAN IDOL

DAVID COOOOOOOK! AAAAAHHHH!!! *goes ballistic some more* He certainly deserved the title. He's amazing! But there's no use denying that the other David is great as well. I had goosebumps when he performed Apologize with One Republic. I wasn't able to watch it live though because I was still asleep during that time because I slept and came home late. But I was able to watch the replay. THEY'RE ALL GREAT :D And Danny Noriega lost his hair. :( Oh well. I'm just so glad that David Cook won. Not too surprising, I guess?

Do You See The World?

Yesterday I went to David's condo in Makati before mom dropped me off at school. And he showed me a video of Mico and I. Seriously now, I was laughing my ass off. And David got mad at Mico for saying "I'm bitch! I bake (Or was it make? Gah!) cake!". Actually, it was really funny that's why I was laughing.. and the way he said it. Classic! And then after seeing the video and lying on his bed for a few minutes, mom had decided that she should send me to school. So I left.

Funny.. when I was climbing up the stairs, Arci totally freaked out when he saw me -- WITH BANGS! Yeah the short ones. He thought I was some Korean. Sorry, sorry.. I don't have pictures. It's in my camera, still. So yes, everybody in the classroom was pretty much surprised by my sudden change of hair style. If you're wondering what got into my mind when I did this, I was simply bored with my current 'do. I pretty much ignored my round face. I know it was a wrong move. I shouldn't have cut it too short! Hahahaha! *regrets*

After school, my friends and I went to Glorietta (as usual). Aki bought fabric and I saw my mother so I just came with them (her and tita D) since according to her, we were already going to leave in a few minutes. So okay, I came with them and all that. And then, they made me go to where David is and help him shop for long-sleeved polos for school (today is his first day! He goes to CSB :p). So he got one from Folded and Hung, and then two from Maldita. I actually helped him choose the one with the purple pin stripes. For more obvious reasons? Purple is my favorite color. And let's just settle upon the fact that the polo was really nice. So we continued going around. Tita and mom went to where we were (Maldita) and then she (David's mom) paid for the polos. He got a white one too. It's too sexy. He looked like a porn star! Haha, yes I'm kidding. So anyway, we got a necktie from Bench. I honestly don't like Bench as an option for buying neckties. We (David and I) had an eye on this necktie from Maldita. A white, skinny tie. Perfect for any polo he has. Especially the purple one of course! And the one with the black stripes. It's really nice but then they ran out of stock in the Glorietta branch which absolutely sucks. And then we went to Rustan's and looked for the perfect bag where David can put his laptop in. He found something, but his mom didn't like it. And I found something I like too.

Since I was going to start training for football when school starts, I currently have my eyes on a pair of cleats from Nike. It's so glorious! I already love it! -- plus, it's not too expensive. And yes, it is such a misfortune to not be able to find a picture of it. It's black with silver. Haay. *day dreams*

This is a poor excuse of having to post something. This (referring to the image above) is not the ones I want. My brother has the exact shoe. And yes, I'm jealous. He's so meticulous! Sam only uses this pair when he has a game. For training he uses his red Mizunos. Which I don't have a problem with. I'm just envious of his spikes. LOL.

I might settle for Nike Tiempos. They're simple and classic. Hmmm.
Pretty, don't you think? LOL. I'm very very excited. For training and school. Gah!

Not to mention, excessively nervous for the upcoming school year. I think I'd have to wear a headband all the time to not expose the bangs until they're long enough to flaunt. Two weeks would be enough. Oh wait, two weeks from now my classes start. Ok, that's good enough.

So..

Last night I was watching Moonlight over RPN/CS. And boy, last night's episode was too TWILIGHT! If you're a Twilight fan then you should go watch Moonlight's 10th episode. It's insane! I mean seriously, while I was watching it, the scene became too familiar. Especially during this one scene. I swear, you should go see it! Here's the link of the episode: CLICK! It made my heart wild inside my chest while clutching the pillow towards me. I love vampire stories ♥

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So tell me about the Philippine Fashion Week (which starts on May 26 and ends on June third)! Anyone going to watch a show or something? Tell me how you got in, please! Haha, well me and my fellow fashion school students (classmates) have decided that since it's going to be fashion week two a week from now, we should dress up as well. Hey, the catwalk isn't the only place where you can showcase your fashion sense, right? If ever we don't get to watch a fashion show, I guess it's okay. And I just found out yesterday that we were going to have a fashion show. Insane as it may sound, it's true. I just don't know how they're planning to do this. I'm scared cos I won't really be able to participate in it since I don't make clothes, I just put them together (Styling lol).. that's my forte actually. That and photography (I'd like to think, at least). I'm hoping this goes really well. Everything I discussed in this single paragraph, I mean.

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ALSO.
Matt and Sonny are coming over. I hope they don't get lost, though. Gotta take a bath and be decent.
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I don't know if it's me or it's them. But I feel like bashing a baseball bat into someone's (a very specific someone at that) face. Have you ever dealt with a suitor who told you that he really likes you and then all of a sudden you find out that he has a girlfriend but didn't when he started courting you? Do you get my point? Okay so it's like this, a guy was courting me, and then he told me that I was the only one he's courting. And then a while ago (literally), I found out that he has a girlfriend! So sabay kami niligawan. I'm suddenly so bitter. Maybe because I sort of like him. Good thing it didn't go all the way. Oh well.. UST, HERE I COME!

Gloomy Weather

The weather matches what I'm currently listening to right now. Which is Forbidden Love by Death Cab For Cutie. It's suddenly so depressing, thinking of what could happen in the near future and whatnot. I shouldn't be thinking about this in the first place. The future is far too unpredictable and I couldn't make assumptions about it -- I could only hope. And so could you.

Oh, and I would really appreciate the outdoors at the moment. I'd gladly wear my hoody because that's what I absolutely miss about the rain. And being able to dress up in layers, using the coolness of the weather as an excuse. Besides that, I miss being in my tights. I've done enough shaving for the summer.

I hope it starts raining a lot again. That would be just glorious. Actually it already have. But not in Makati, of course. Okay forget the raining part, I just want the weather to be cold and gloomy. I don't have any umbrella with me now.

I'm really bored.

So I'm just going to answer surveys.

SURVEY #1
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
--> EW. O_O

2. How much cash do you have on you?
--> I'm flat broke.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
--> Gore.

4. Favorite planet?
--> Saturn. And Earth, of course.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
--> I don't know. My phone's broken :(

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
--> Such Great Heights.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
--> A white tank top.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
--> No.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
--> Havaianas.. which aren't shoes.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
--> Bright

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
--> Well I stole this from Krista. I think she's really cool. ;)

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
--> Day dreaming.. at night.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
--> Something like "Tell me what time you'll be having a phone again tomorrow so we can talk again. I miss you so badly".

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
--> Imperial.

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
--> "Yeah"

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
--> It's Bang :)

18. Last furry thing you touched?
--> Pepper.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
--> Meds?

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
--> Wow, haven't done that in a while.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
--> Seventeen. But I want to be eighteen soon. I want to be eighteen for the rest of my life. But nothing beats being seventeen. SEVENTEEN!

22. Your worst enemy?
--> My alter ego? Who is probably the coolest person in the world since I'm the complete opposite. I think.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
--> Clouds.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
--> "Did you go out last night?" to Chelsie over Y!M.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
--> To be able to fly, definitely.

26. Do you like someone?
--> Edward Cullen. Or Jasper Hale :x

27. The last song you listened to?
--> We Will Become Silhouettes by The Postal Service. I love them :D


SURVEY #2
SAD SECTION.
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
Yes

02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes

03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Yes

04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?
There's no use denying.

05. Do you cry when you get an injury?
Most of the time, I don't.

06. Do certain songs make you cry?
Some.


HAPPY SECTION.
01. Are you a happy person? with who?
Of course. With Aki, since he's the person I'm always with.

02. What can always make you happy?
A great day with my family and friends. And a new book never fails.

03. Do you wish you were happier?
On specific days

04. Is being happy overrated?
NEVER.

05. Can music make you happy?
I love music.

LOVE SECTION.
01. How many times have you had your heart broken? --> Secret.
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? --> For my parents.
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you? --> Yes.
04. Have you ever been head over heels? --> Not that I know of. :))
05. Who are three people you love right now? --> Aki, Dora and Desi :) And Mico, David, Jonie, Celine, Arci, Aron, CJ, and Matt and Sonny! :))

HATE SECTION.
01. Who do you actually hate? --> Hmm. None.
02. Have you ever made a hit list? --> Hahahaha! Now that you mentioned it..
03. Have you ever been on a hit list? --> I don't think so.
04. Are you a mean bully? --> Sometimes. :))
05. Do you hate George Bush? --> Yes :|

SELF ESTEEM SECTION.
01. Are you good looking? --> I won't say yes and I won't say no.
02. Do you wish you could be someone else? --> Sure

I HAVE ...
[ ] done drugs
[ ] been to a rave.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x] been used.
[ ] ran from the cops.
[ ] been fired
[ ] snuck into a movie.
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] fired a real gun.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stolen something from your school.
[ ] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated MardiGras in New Orleans.
[ ] been to Europe.
[ ] been to Australia.
[ ] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] played 'Clue'.
[x] had a sleepover
[x] gone ice skating.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] have/had a TRUCK.
[x] driven a car.
[ ] totaled a car.
[ ] flashed someone.
[ ] been flashed

DO YOU ...
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[x] have a dog.
[x] sing along with your music.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[x] listen to rock
[x] listen to punk (POST PUNK PLEASE! XD)
[x] listen to hip hop
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to hardcore.
[x] listen to pop.
[x] listen to r&b.
[x] listen to jazz.
[x] listen to indie.
[x] listen to christian music
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[ ] listen to showtunes
[x] have hobbies
[ ] skateboard. (will try)
[ ] get good grades (I get average ones)
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear eyeliner
[x] wear mascara
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red
[x] like the color green
[x] like the color black
[x] like the color purple
[x] like neon colors
[x] think all those colors are okay except the ones you xed are better
[x] like to read
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair. (long back)
[x] have medium length hair. (front)
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
[x] have a cellphone (it's as good as dead)

ARE YOU...
[x] bored
[x] happy
[x] upset (a bit)
[ ] blonde
[x] brunette
[ ] a redhead
[ ] Samoan
[x] Filipino
[ ] Korean (no. But I look like one)
[ ] French
[ ] American
[ ] Italian
[ ] Black
[ ] Mexican
[x] Asian
[x] A Christian
[ ] A Muslim
[ ] Polish
[ ] Irish
[x] German (JUST THE NAME! Haha)
[ ] Austrian
[ ] Russian
[ ] Norwegian
[ ] Danish
[x] Hispanic
[x] Other
[x] No clue.
[ ] a Hindu.
[ ] a scientologist
[ ] agnostic
[ ] athiest
[ ] satanist
[ ] religiously confused
[ ] short
[ ] average
[x] tall.
[ ] realistic. (I'm very bad at this area)
[x] an emotional person.
[ ] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[ ] buzzed
[ ] high
[ ] caffeinated
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[ ] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] very ticklish
[x] listening to music

LOOK AT ME.
01. What is your current hair color? --> Reddish brown.
02. Whats your natural color? --> Fair skinned
03. What color are your eyes? --> Brown
04. Current Piercings? --> One on each earlobe. I want to have a bridge in my cartridge.
05. Straight Hair or Curls? --> Wavy.


CURRENTLY WEARING.
01. What shirt are you wearing? --> White tank top.
02. Shorts? --> Black.
03. Shoes? --> Teal metallic Havaianas.
04. Underwear? --> Pink boy leg :P
05. Necklaces? --> Two chains. One with a pin as a pendant and the other with a heart pendant :x

THIS OR THAT.
01. Rock or rap; --> Rock
02. Coffee or Hot Cocoa; --> Coffee
03. Wild Night out or Romantic Night in; --> Wild night out I think :)) I don't think I'm ready for the latter :p
04. Chocolate or Vanilla; --> Vanilla
05. Hummer or Sports Car; --> Sports Car ;)
06. Bracelet or Necklace; --> Necklace
07. History or Science; --> History please
08. Sleep in or Early to rise; --> Sleep in?
09. Beach or Boardwalk; --> I prefer the beach.
10. Hoodie or Tee Shirt; --> Hoodie! :D
11. Night or Day; --> Night. ;)
12. High School or college; --> College!
13. California or Florida;--> California
14. Love at first sight or Learn to Love; --> Learn to love :)

HAVE YOU EVER.
01. Hugged someone? --> Yeah.
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? --> Hmm.. No.
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? --> Yes
04. Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? --> Thank God, NO!

LASTS.
01. person you talked to in person? --> Ate Tata :))
02. person you talked to online? --> Chelsie.
03. person you talked to on the phone? --> Aki.
05. laugh? --> While eating lunch.
06. last time you had a shower? --> This morning.

0THER.
01. Do you like surveys? --> Sure.
02. What kind of shampoo do you use? --> Sunsilk.
03. Do you get along with your parents?--> Of course.
04. Do you have mental breakdowns? --> Happened to me once. I was in third year.
05. Did you ever fake being sick? --> Yeah :))

CURRENT.
01. Current Mood; --> Bored.
02. Current music; --> Don't Call - The Secret Handshake
03. Current hair; --> Tied in a bun.
04. Current Longing; --> Venti, Green Tea Frappe T_T and LONDON.
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing; --> ONLINE.
06. Current Windows Open; --> Mozilla, Windows Media Player.
07. Current desktop picture; --> Clouds.
08. Current Favorite Music Artist; --> Placebo.